It's finally, semi-officially over. The only last thing to do is for the actual filing of divorce and then it will be fully over.
For those who have followed the events on G+, the past week and a half have been a literal hell for me and my family. A few weeks ago the Department of Health and Human Services (DHS) of Oklahoma made claims that they have evidence to show that I was hitting my oldest daughter, Caitlyn. These accusations are completely false but because of them, my wife Kelly decided to kick me out and I was unable to see my children until the forensic investigation was completed... the good news is that they found absolutely zero evidence, but Caitlyn has been more loving towards me because she felt it was her fault.
On the evening of February 1st, 2013 I was told to leave the house by my wife Kelly, she made several accusations that evening in the middle of our front yard... she packed up all of my stuff, called me a freak, constantly used words like "tranny", "retard", "worthless piece of shit" and not once during our argument did I say anything negative towards here, in fact I did agree with some of things she said to me because I have been feeling like a worthless piece of shit for a while... she called me selfish for wanting to become a woman so much that I was sacrificing my family life for it all, which of course is simply not true. Would I have been going very slow with my transition for the sake of my family if I was so selfish? I could have started HRT almost immediately when I came out in April 2011, but I didn't because I didn't want to make the change so sudden for my wife or my children. That evening Kelly demanded I stay in a hotel and Kelly's mother took me to the store, got me some provisions and I ended up staying in the Best Western less than half of a mile away from home... I spent the next week in there and while the room, the bed, and the TV were all fine it just felt like I was in a prison... I didn't leave that room for over two days because of how sad I was and thankfully I still had my phone, with internet and was able to regular post updates on G+ and keep in touch with my many friends there... thank you all.
So what is next for Julie?
Well, I finally was able to get an apartment close to my job and for the past week I've been on short term disability so I wouldn't lose my job that I hold dear so much. I've seen a doctor to get on new anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medication because without it I probably would have lost my mind and just given up on life completely. Thankfully Kelly and I have been talking on a more rational level since the big fight and split-up; she has given me the computer, several furniture items she will also be letting me have at my apartment since all that is there is zero furniture and about seven big garbage bags just full of my clothes. I think I am going to try to finally get my hair styled tomorrow if possible and that way I can go back to work with a new hairdo (I'm excited!!), new clothes, painted nails and start my earlier work schedule.
It is very important for everyone that reads this to understand that my marriage is now completely over, there is no chance of reconciliation... sure, we plan on being close still as we've been married for nearly eight years and have our third child together on the way in April, but I want to thank each and every person on Google Plus and Reddit that has been completely supportive of me and I look forward to a new day.